Hot / Cold (Regulation Loop) my core temperature - Menopausal deregulation / Realization

 

Hot / Cold (Regulation Loop)

my core temperature — Menopausal deregulation / Realization

I’m still in the house.

No dip — just this strange temperature split.

Hot and cold at the same time.

Hands freezing.

Inside my stomach: cold.

Feet cold.

Ears cold.

Breast area hot — warm there.

Neck warm.

Everywhere else cold.

Hot and cold at once.

I lift my hair up, then down,

cool my neck.

Armpits uncovered to let the steam out —

that’s usually where the heat lives —

but today I’m hot and I’m cold.

My nose is running.

My hands are freezing.

My core is on fire.

How do you manage a body

that can’t regulate its own temperature?

How do you plan?

Order?

Do?

How do you get to your tasks

when your body keeps switching

cold / hot / fight / fly?

My lower back is freezing —

kidney area cold.

My legs and crotch are warm.

My calves feel normal — t

he only part that feels “just right.”

My fingertips are freezing.

My cheeks are warm.

The tip of my nose is cold.

From the tip to the toes

every part is a different temperature.

Warm core.

Cold edges.

Running nose.

Frozen hands.

Warm chest.

Cold back.

Warm neck.

Cold throat.

I am all of these things at once.