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Panic Logic - Poem

 

Panic Logic


My body feeling something my brain can’t explain (compute)


My body feeling something

my brain can’t explain (compute).

Such as a panic attack day.

Throat hard to swallow.

Feeling I’ve forgotten something.


Air sucked out of the house this morning —

tried to regulate.


Construction

Constricted

Constriction


Chest — strange feeling.

Trying to calm.

Trying to breathe without thought,

without thinking my natural rhythm.


Natural nature —

trees, forest, breathing, birds, flowers,

sky, sunshine.

Distraction, reaction —

it’s still the same.


Ear pods in.

Podcast — trying to calm,

break, re check, reboot this cycle.

It’s not

changing the

feeling.

I’m trying to forget it.


Hormones

Surging

Tipping

Dipping


My body rhythm

is wrong — it’s trying to find its beat.

My heartbeat.

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