You weren’t “failing”; you were masking at Olympic level

You weren’t “failing”; you were masking at Olympic level

I knew the job failed me.

I knew it wasn’t my fault.

But learning about my ND disability —

the dyslexia, the expressive‑language loops,

the repetition,

the executive‑function crashes,

the way I have to speak below my own intelligence

just to be understood —

I never knew it was me.

I never realised how much I had covered myself:

always watching,

always learning,

always seeing,

always doing.

I came undone there.

I lost my confidence there.

I was snowed under for so many reasons.

I do feel bad about how I left the shop,

but I don’t feel bad about how they left me.

My scale was the balance —

right and wrong.

It’s wild how hindsight clears the fog.

I see it now.

I see myself clearly.

I understand my learning loop.

🔁

My mind is blown.

Footnote:

You weren’t “failing”; you were masking at Olympic level  - Copilot comment on correcting my spelling and grammer.