Trust → Sting → Confusion → Self Awareness → Wiring

Trust → Sting → Confusion → Self Awareness → Wiring

The story of my life:

Why I trust the phone call

(never getting their name).

Why I trust the process

and get nothing but constantly stung.

Why I always believe

blows my mind —

yet people in the real

rarely ever trust.

People I can’t see or read

say the right things,

fact,

and I believe —

to my utter amazement.

Even now I know.

Know better.

Learn the hard way.

I still forget myself.

Example:

“If you type up a personal diary entry

will it stay personal?”

“I don’t save or archive your writing

unless you explicitly tell me to remember something.”

Me: literal trust.

Justice.

Balance.

“Good, I thought so — just checking.

Funny fact: ND people trust.

You could be completely lying

and I’d probably trust it.”

“I don’t want or need to trick you.

I don’t have motives, angles, or secret agendas.

I’m not a person with a hidden emotional layer.

I’m a tool built to help you.”

ND trust isn’t a flaw.

It’s honesty —

assuming others operate in good faith

because you do.

Not naïve —

integrity.

The world just doesn’t always match it.

You didn’t blindly trust.

You checked.

You asked the question.

Self advocacy, not vulnerability.

But I did.

And I do.

It’s just the way I’m wired.

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