The gifts that you where given #2

14th June 2025

I see it now—

I have wasted so much time

Pre pre-empting

Refereeing

Caring for everyone

(Over myself)

The outcome of family gatherings,

Friends gatherings—

My entire life.

Since 8 or 9

Drummed in: be aware, protect, keep the flow.

And I realise—

It wasn’t my task.

I got gifted it as a kid

And no one ever let me let go.

I’ve let go.

They fight.

Fall out.

Anyone.

Everywhere.

Anyone.

NOT MINE to juggle.

And now—

I bounce.

Bounce bounce bounce.

Not battered.

Not bruised.

Just moving.

My own rhythm.

My own flow.

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